Kirk Norcross paid tribute to his late father on Sunday as he marked the third anniversary of his tragic death.
Mick Norcross was found dead at his home by son Kirk on January 21, 2021 after dying by suicide at the age of 57.
Sharing a montage of snaps of the pair, Kirk, 35, reflected on their time together as he thanked his father for making him the ‘person I am today.’
Alongside the images, he shared: ‘3 years today ❤️❤️ You are at peace, your soul at rest, But that won’t stop the tears. As I remember the special times We shared over the years.
‘You taught me oh so many things And you showed me the way. [sic]’
Kirk Norcross paid tribute to his late father Mick on Sunday as he marked the third anniversary of his tragic death by suicide
Sharing a montage of snaps of the pair, Kirk, 35, reflected on their time together as he thanked his father for making him the ‘person I am today’
Kirk continued: ‘You helped me overcome hard times. To be the person I am today.
Though I’m no longer a child. And you’re no longer here, I’ll never let go of the memories, I’ll always hold them dear. [sic]’
Last year, Kirk revealed that he called a drug dealer just moments after finding his late father’s body.
TV star Kirk, 34, recalled how the traumatising ordeal threw him into a ‘massive relapse’ back into his drug addiction, but is now proudly sober.
Speaking to Daniel O’Reilly, who also goes by Dapper Laughs, on his podcast ‘Menace to Sobriety’, Kirk said: ‘At the funeral I made sure I was sober.
‘I tell you this is how bad my addiction was, I was months and months sober before my dad died.
‘My dad killed himself, and I found my father – The minute I said goodbye to my dad, straight away that addiction come in.
‘I give him a cuddle and kiss and say goodbye, run out the house and rang the drug dealer.
‘That is the only thing that could have stopped me wanting to kill myself. I went on a big relapse.
‘You know what I don’t want no-one to kill themselves but I respect my father’s decision for what he had done – my father is very planned and calculated.
‘It was weird because the day my dad died I became a man, I really did. It sounds horrible but this would have had to have happened for me to become a man, but I’m upset that my dad didn’t get to see me become the man that I am today but that is due to my dad going, you know.’
Kirk shared: You helped me overcome hard times. To be the person I am today. Though I’m no longer a child. And you’re no longer here, I’ll never let go of the memories [sic]’
Touching on Kirk getting emotional, Daniel says of his tears: ‘I honestly think mate that they are tears of joy for yourself.’
Kirk adds: ‘Honestly I’m so proud of myself, I’m so proud. I’ve got a daughter and a son, unfortunately I don’t get to see my daughter but hopefully when she’s older she’ll come and find me, I’m ready to be a dad to her whenever, and I’ve got a son who’s my world.
‘I’ve moved out of Essex, my son lives about an hour away from Essex. I don’t know anyone where I’ve moved, I’ve moved to Norfolk, not where my son is but about 15 minutes from my son, just to be with him as much as I can.
‘What you leave behind is just pure upset and a lot of questions. No one’s ever gonna get the answers for them questions because you’re not there to answer them.
‘If you tell people what you’re going through they might not be able to help you but they can hold your hand during that time.
‘I do get why people want to commit suicide, and you know I’ve tried it since my father died, you know on myself, I don’t know if it was a botched attempt but lucky enough I’m still here.
‘There is help, and I know it’s f*****g hard and that but there’s help for someone to just be with you and sit with you while you’re going through these bad things.
‘The reason why I tried to do it this year is because I felt like I had no one, I was on my own, I was sitting in my house on my own for days and days and days and there was no one there – I genuinely thought that no one would miss me when I go.
‘Once I changed my life and got my new house, I realised things are going good. I understand why people think about suicide, but I guarantee that when you split up with your first girlfriend you thought you were never gonna find another girlfriend.
‘When you lost your first job, you never thought you’d find another job. When you run out of money, you thought you’d never get money again. But we’ve all got it back.’
Speaking about his dad being the backbone of the family, Kirk said he ‘didn’t mind’ his addiction leading to his death: ‘I knew that my dad’s presence was enough for the family.
‘So when he was gone I got to step up. The minute he died, I went on a little bit of a bender – it’s not an excuse that I got on it.’
The TV star is now an ambassador for suicide charity Papyrus and speaks to people everyday who are suffering like his dad was, estimating he helps ’10 to 20′ a day.
Kirk has been suffering from PTSD since finding his father’s body, but admitted recently: ‘In some ways I’m pleased it was me who found him but it will be etched in my mind for the rest of my life.
‘When I realised he’d passed, I lay next to his body, kissed him on the head and said: ‘thank you for everything you did dad and sorry for all I have done. I promise I’ll do my best.’ It was that moment he died I became a man. I knew I had to try and make him proud.’
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Mick Norcross was found dead at his home by son Kirk on January 21, 2021 after dying by suicide at the age of 57 (pictured together in 2011)